My Life, Your Life.

Many people keep telling me that how great it is that i dont have to go to school anymore. I've got 2 more months till i enter NS and i can enjoy myself, chase my dream, do what want. You're wrong.

I dont deny i did once thought about this about my seniors. I was wrong too. Its weird that once school life ends, you enter a rift that teleports you to reality. Everyone is realistic once you leave school, no longer idealistic. All the "I want to be a doctor to save lives" and the "I want to be a teacher to change lives" becomes "I want to be a banker to earn money and have a good life".

When I was in school, it was simple. All i had to worry about was my studies. I've got sufficient money for everything i need - movie, books, food, transport - everything. There isnt even any 'punishment' for not doing well in studies. All i had to handle was school stress. I may have to wake up earlier and sleep late, but you spend more time with people that aint selfish. You're in a protected environment. You're sleeping, and/or learning. It is easy life.

When i left school, things isnt as simple anymore. Reality hits me, and it hits me hard. I no longer get allowance. I have to support myself. All the responsibilities comes at you. Suddenly its expensive to travel, because you're no longer a student. Suddenly food becomes expensive, because theres no longer lousy but cheap canteen food. Suddenly, you've got no free time, because you've got to work. Suddenly your free time is boring, because if you're lucky that reality sets in later for you, your friends arent usually that lucky. Suddenly you can't commit to anything, because you're afraid you'll need to work. Suddenly, your ideals disappear. Suddenly you become realistic. Suddenly, you lose yourself. Suddenly, you become human.

It is saddening for me, not because reality sets in on me. Its because it has taken over most of my friends. You see them come, change, go. Its sad, because you see that people all have to go through this. Its sad that im the only few that still stand firm to what i belive, something that was once shared, now mine alone.

So school sux? Let me tell you. Life sux. More than school.

RanDom: Life is like a dick, if its hard, F*** IT!