Less than 10 hours from now, i'll be having my SOC test. This test held great significance and had cost me many hours of sleep. Right now though, im feeling calm and unmotivated. This test has lost its purpose.
Earlier in the day, I was presented with the opportunity to cross the legendary bridge. It was something that I've been aiming for since the first day i stepped into Pasir Lebar camp and over the weeks i have worked hard towards it. When finally this right was bestowed to me, I, for some reason that i've yet to comprehend, REJECTED IT.
Yup, thats right. I rejected the cross over.
Im confused now. I don't know how im feeling. Seems im disappointed by my own choice. Disappointed that i gave up on this golden opportunity to prove myself worthy. Wasted all my efforts and hard work. Upset that I feel the me myself is incompetent in handling OCS training. Sigh..
RanDOM: wrong turn?
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
No fair!
NIGHTS OUT FOR IPPT PEEPS ONLY. WHY?!? ):
Sigh.. So my coy just gave a nights out to those who re-took their ippt in the morning. Its not fair! We had to do our 3km run in the morning and THEY DIDNT HAVE TO. That pretty much balances the effort both parties put in.. So why them only?
Friday is SOC. I did my own training while the rest were doing their ippt or their SIB (Slack In Bunk) + tactical sleeping + one-third alert Observation post for Enciks. (Yes, i actually did MORE than the ippt peeps. Wheres my nights out?) The result of my training? I need an average of 2min to clear 400m. Sigh.. That means i really really really have to clear the obstacles super quickly.. Like a NINJA! (: Lets hope *Cross fingers*
Random: It rained!
Sigh.. So my coy just gave a nights out to those who re-took their ippt in the morning. Its not fair! We had to do our 3km run in the morning and THEY DIDNT HAVE TO. That pretty much balances the effort both parties put in.. So why them only?
Friday is SOC. I did my own training while the rest were doing their ippt or their SIB (Slack In Bunk) + tactical sleeping + one-third alert Observation post for Enciks. (Yes, i actually did MORE than the ippt peeps. Wheres my nights out?) The result of my training? I need an average of 2min to clear 400m. Sigh.. That means i really really really have to clear the obstacles super quickly.. Like a NINJA! (: Lets hope *Cross fingers*
Random: It rained!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Updatessss!!
Hey internet! How have you been? Let me tell you about me..
- My computer fried. (yes, again. Spark and smoke.. Cool shit!)
- One more week to pass out from BSLC
- Need to get 9.30 for SOC to attempt crossover. Im at 16min now ):
- Foot rot. Yup, i have that o.O
- Changed my phone plan. Now i pay 50bucks less per month =D
- Im intending to buy iphone 4! (and sell it for profit ^^ )
- Was LSM for the whole of field camp week! Suay..
- Rain during my shell scrape night. Suay x2..
- I have nights out this week! Not sure which day though (Andrew you know what this means!)
- I spent $60+ on new clothes and a berm. I really like them (:
- I found out Andrew stopped blogging D= (there goes my internet entertainment)
- This Friday is my FINAL SOC.. nine thirty ARGH!
- I miss my cards. I just need to dribble them.. (damN! Can't bring them to camp..)
- Im worried.. Everyone is having prelims.
- I watched The Last Air Bender with Timo!
- I watched Liar Game with Clarence.
- I remember Bryan Hoe's IC number and his shoe size!
- Pay day is sooN! (okay, maybe not so soon but still.. PAY DAY!)
Well, thats what happened to me.. Not in order though. Hehe.. See you soon!
RaNDom: Wouldn't it be awesome if it rains....?
- My computer fried. (yes, again. Spark and smoke.. Cool shit!)
- One more week to pass out from BSLC
- Need to get 9.30 for SOC to attempt crossover. Im at 16min now ):
- Foot rot. Yup, i have that o.O
- Changed my phone plan. Now i pay 50bucks less per month =D
- Im intending to buy iphone 4! (and sell it for profit ^^ )
- Was LSM for the whole of field camp week! Suay..
- Rain during my shell scrape night. Suay x2..
- I have nights out this week! Not sure which day though (Andrew you know what this means!)
- I spent $60+ on new clothes and a berm. I really like them (:
- I found out Andrew stopped blogging D= (there goes my internet entertainment)
- This Friday is my FINAL SOC.. nine thirty ARGH!
- I miss my cards. I just need to dribble them.. (damN! Can't bring them to camp..)
- Im worried.. Everyone is having prelims.
- I watched The Last Air Bender with Timo!
- I watched Liar Game with Clarence.
- I remember Bryan Hoe's IC number and his shoe size!
- Pay day is sooN! (okay, maybe not so soon but still.. PAY DAY!)
Well, thats what happened to me.. Not in order though. Hehe.. See you soon!
RaNDom: Wouldn't it be awesome if it rains....?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Laugh, just laugh.
So they say laughter is the best medicine. Recently I read from the papers (yes i read) and i found out that people who laugh more lives longer.
Laughing prevents you from getting into sticky situation. You can poke fun of someone with a smile on your face and a 'haha' between your sentence and you'd get away with it - even if those are feelings from the very core of you.
Laughing helps you get out of sticky situation. When you are completely embrassed for something stupid you did and it seems like the whole world has its attention on your stupidity, you could try and find a hole and hide your head or you could just simply laugh it off.
Laughing is a very important social skill. You need to laugh to mix. You can bring 2 people together but if they do not laugh together, chances are they won't last. Its the same for BGR, BFF, Best-whatever-you-like.
So laugh. Laugh at friends, laugh at girls, laugh at guys or at movies. Laugh at things or events or anything and everything. Laugh.. That is if you know how. I've forgotton how to laugh.
RaNdOM: (:
Laughing prevents you from getting into sticky situation. You can poke fun of someone with a smile on your face and a 'haha' between your sentence and you'd get away with it - even if those are feelings from the very core of you.
Laughing helps you get out of sticky situation. When you are completely embrassed for something stupid you did and it seems like the whole world has its attention on your stupidity, you could try and find a hole and hide your head or you could just simply laugh it off.
Laughing is a very important social skill. You need to laugh to mix. You can bring 2 people together but if they do not laugh together, chances are they won't last. Its the same for BGR, BFF, Best-whatever-you-like.
So laugh. Laugh at friends, laugh at girls, laugh at guys or at movies. Laugh at things or events or anything and everything. Laugh.. That is if you know how. I've forgotton how to laugh.
RaNdOM: (:
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Dying...
Have you notice this trend?
Yup, I really wonder how long more i can sustain.. *fingers crossed*
It is National Day eve now, at this moment. I guess by the time Im done with this post the clock would've striked 12 and Singapore would've turned 45. 45 years, not a long time but not short either. Just half a year in NS and I've experience so many things, so much more than my whole life combined. 45 years and Singapore changed from brown to multi colored; from singlet to CK shirt; from street stall to Raffles Hotel.
I've started to collect movie tickets, the part that you get to keep. I've always wanted to collect it but I can't seem to store it without losing it. Today I finally got blutack (or white) and stuck the few tickets i have onto my cupboard. I hope to fill my whole door with it! WhooOoOo~
If i survive this coming week, i'll post again.
RandOM: 3D2N Field camp!~
Sunday, August 1, 2010
And life goes on...
I was standing at Joo Koon mrt, waiting for a friend so that we can walk back to camp together. There were many like me, easily identified by their green section commander bag and kiwi brush hairstyle in civilian attire. There were also those in penguin suit - White long sleve top, back long pants and leather shoes. Looking at the golden badges there were wearing on their right collar, I knew for sure they are the 'elites' of the SAF - OCTs - or maybe 'elite-to-be'.
Its really depressing for them im sure. They just got let out of camp approximately 36 hours ago after 3 weeks of confinement and now they are heading back to camp. Some call it hell, but it'll be their home for the next 3 months at the very least.
Just across the bridge from hell, lies heaven. Its not that there are angle halos or gods there, but relative to whats across the bridge its much peaceful here. Much much much more peaceful. That is where I reside. Strangely, even though its a known fact that life across the bridge is much more demanding, many here wants to cross it. To transcend from heaven to hell. They say those that survive hell become gods of their own world. Which is better? Heaven or Hell?
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Sorry guys, I haven't updated this blog for a long time. Honestly, its not because i have no time. I have a laptop in camp and I can use it almost every night. There are just too many things happening that I don't know what to blog about. Well, in short, I got GOLD for IPPT, tried tear gas, know how to move about in jungle.. I guess thats it. Hopefully i'll update more.
Random: MOARRR
Its really depressing for them im sure. They just got let out of camp approximately 36 hours ago after 3 weeks of confinement and now they are heading back to camp. Some call it hell, but it'll be their home for the next 3 months at the very least.
Just across the bridge from hell, lies heaven. Its not that there are angle halos or gods there, but relative to whats across the bridge its much peaceful here. Much much much more peaceful. That is where I reside. Strangely, even though its a known fact that life across the bridge is much more demanding, many here wants to cross it. To transcend from heaven to hell. They say those that survive hell become gods of their own world. Which is better? Heaven or Hell?
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Sorry guys, I haven't updated this blog for a long time. Honestly, its not because i have no time. I have a laptop in camp and I can use it almost every night. There are just too many things happening that I don't know what to blog about. Well, in short, I got GOLD for IPPT, tried tear gas, know how to move about in jungle.. I guess thats it. Hopefully i'll update more.
Random: MOARRR
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