Butterfly Effect

If you're wondering what the title of this post is, its part of chaos theory.

It has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world.

- Chaos Theory

I was thinking, if you saved your friend from a bear, you'd be a hero. What about the bear? You may have killed the bear and its family. That is indirect killing. It just makes me feel there isnt any action that is totally perfectly right. It saddens me ):

If you still can't feel it, im emo when im writing this post. Well, Andy asked me about 2 jobs that he was offered - Low prospect but loads of free time or higher prospect but much less free time. Its a trade off between time and prospect. Logically, i'd tell him to go for the later since he doesnt have much other commitments either. It'll be the best choice in the long term.
BUT
I couldnt say that with ease. My emotions starts stirring up. Andy is like the guardian of AMK 548 basketball court. You can say he is somewhat the pillar of it. He has a bunch of loyal followers (me included) who'd come down and play regularly because of him and everyone else. He is the corner stone, center piece, the key.
If he resign as guardian, less people would play ball, maybe none. It hurts, cause im having such a good time with the peeps.

I start to think, is my fire for basketball or for friends. I'd say its fire for basketball that brought me down initially, but now? I'd still play alone, but it'll be different. It wouldnt be the same. It isnt the same.

Well, i guess im selfish. I cant let go. Its always like that. I know that people come and people go, but why cant people stay? I want to stay for everyone but what is the point when people keep going? You cant go with them cause we'll all go in a different direction. I just cant let go. We should be contented that at least our lives cross path. I'd rather we move off together.

Human interaction is tough. I cant understand myself.

RaNdOm: Munich Putsch ):