Too much to think about nothing to do..

This blogpost title is part of the lyrics of a song written by Dave Days, some random youtuber. Before you start reading this post here is a warning.

WARNING!

Emo post ahead. Read at your own risk.
Parental Guidance advised.

Ok, it sucks when it seems like you've got time but actually you don't. Just like block leave. It seems like you've got 1 week break but this 1 week is not enough to get anything done. Everything you try to do you've got to complete it within the 1 week. Its like some deadline or something. Feels like someone telling you "Okay, for the next 2 weeks you can make anything possible(magic or something). After that you're going to hell". Sigh..

Oh, before I forget, by popular demand:

So last sunday i met up with sean. Sean is a random dude i met in World of Warcraft 4 years back. Sunday was the first time i met him. Honestly, I expected him to be fat and green. Too bad he isn't ):

So here it is Sean! Your post.

Posting:

So yesterday I got my posting result. Im going to SCS aka SISPEC. Honestly im quite upset. I've prep myself into thinking that OCS training is managable and 40 weeks would past quickly just so that if i get posted there at least mentally im ready. Well, i didnt get there. I wanted to join OCS so that I can impact my recruits next time. I guess no matter how significant or insignificant you are, you can still make a difference. I guess... or hope.

Im feeling super down now. They say its because im booking in on monday. Maybe.. Oh, and a random thought. People say you should accept yourself as who you are yet people constantly try to improve themselves. Is that a contridiction? I dunno.

RandOM: I NEED TO BE MORE HONEST WITH MYSELF!