Ghost and Monster.

What happened to the childhood toys, the imaginary friends, the treasure boxes that you keep in the drawer and the friends you promised forever?

Did you have a favourite toy when you were young? A dog, or perhaps a doll. Or maybe an imaginary friend? What was its name? Remember it used to be your best companion, the one you turn to when you were happy, the one you hugged when you were sad. Where are they now? Neglected?

How about the treasure box you kept in the drawer? The box that contains all your treasures - pokemon cards, bottle caps, shiny stone, stickers, fallen tooth etc. Where is this box? Thrown away during spring cleaning?

Remember your childhood friends? Those you fought with but never stop playing with? Those running barefooted with you around the blocks, doing the stupidest things. Those that made time fly, made you look forward to tomorrow. Those you promised you'd play with forever, when you grow up you'd still be friends. Have you grown up? Where are they? Lost contact?

What is your favourite toy now? Or do you still even play?
What is in your treasure box now? Money and certificates?
Who are the people around you? Are they friends? Or just co-workers? Will you be there for them? Will they, for you?

Maybe ghosts and monsters are not trying to catch children. They just want to make friends with them because they are lonely. Because only children can see ghosts and monsters. Only children dream. We live in reality.

RaNDoM: pick

Back!

Ohhhhhh! New Post (:

Sorry people. My computer fried again (or so i thought) so I have been connected via my lappy, which do not have some java or something to blog. [After sending my comp back and forth from Sim Lim 4-5 times I found out my monitor is causing short circuits... not my comp -.- ] Anyway, im back!

Its already Feb, after Chinese New Year. CNY didn't go all that well for me, but it was a bountiful one(: If it did anything it just strengthed my resolve.

Im going Thailand! No, not h0liday ): So the army is going to bring us for some training in Thailand(: Yes, we serve the nation and have free overseas trip! Anyway I'll be away from 24/2 - 13/3 i think. Quite a long trip.. I think the longest I've ever gone overseas for.

Alrighty, another time (:

-Envy

Twenty Eleven.

I noticed "twenty" and "eleven" are quite neglected words. I don't think I've spelled them out since pre-school spelling test..

So we're at the dust of 2010. Many many things happened this year and I must say this is the most fulfilling year I've had so far. Yes, I think its because of NS. Lets look back to my 2010.

My 2010

Birthday
My 19th Birthday was one of, if not, the BEST. All my friends were there with me for me. We had a (cake) smashing time and not to forget my loots. I really love the Pokeball card Yuqi and Clement made for me. Thanks for choosing me (:

Basketball Frenzy
Yea, I remember this crazy period too. I would go down to AMK 6 days a week to play basketball from hot afternoon till the lights go off. Thanks ZH for accompanying me with this little craze of mine. I had a good time with Andy and Jovan too so Kudos to them. Oh, and if you think practise makes perfect, I think not. My basketball still suck!

BMT
Hardship. It is the toughest part of NS so far. I guess it was tough because I'm not used to military life yet. Thanks Andrew and many many people that help me pull through this hellhole.

SCS
WhoOO! BMT to SCS is like hell to paradise. It really can't get any better than this (except ORD)

AI
The intial weeks were tough, but it got good and good-er and became good-est. It is one of those times where you hate is so much yet love it. I had a fantastic time with 8 of my retarded detachment mates. Thanks Det 4. Oh, and I made my best friend here; BEN HU (:

Back to SCS - CAT
This was just 2 weeks but the best. Initially I felt real lost because I was the only one from my course in my syndicate, then I met Macson! Mac is my idol, inspiration, role model and whatever you call it! He brought me round the camp, told me stories, taught me lessons, skills (not smoking!) He is like my brother and I like it that way (: Thanks Mac. Thanks Ben also!

21SA
Sigh.. Unit life just started so nothing much happened but it seems boring. 4 of my detachment mates from AI came with me but it just doesn't feel the same anymore. Well, at least I still have Ben with me (: BenNnn!

Christmas
The most awesome 25 December. Thanks Macson, Julie. You've filled me with happiness in its purest form.


So now, looking ahead. 2011 is going to be interesting. It is an important year, the year before I become legit and start taking the world. I am going to..
- Learn Piano
- Buy a guitar and learn
- Continue with my song. Its KIV for now.
- Read, alot.
- Apply for University
- Improve on my magic
- Do a project
- Be better friends with Ben
- Be better brothers with Mac
- Make my ideas practical
...
Thats all I can think for now. If you read till here, WELL DONE!

RandoM: Rocketeer

3SGT (:

WhooOoOoO! Finally after so many months I have a black rank on my chest!

So on the 17th of December I officially became a 3rd Sergeant and im going to Kranji camp with all my friends. My besssttt friend is there too so YEA! They say that once you wear a black rank, all the responsibilities comes and so do the extra duties. Still, YEA!

RAnDom: I'll choose the same end.

Look What You've Done...

Facebook have brought to us many goodness in one site. You can make friends, play games, get notification on friend's birthday, wish them 'Happy Birthday' on their wall. You may soon even be able to send the gifts through Facebook! But what has Facebook taken away from us?

At this point, you should know that most actions have a trade off. Handphones allow us to store numbers of friends, disintegrating our innate ability to memorize the phone numbers. The connectivity handphone provides also reduces punctuality. The goodness that Facebook brought about also took something equally, if not more important from us.

Goodness: Whats on your mind? You could let all your friends know what you're thinking and you can read what all your friends are thinking. Great way to know you friends better - on the surface that is.

My Feelings: Its degenerating I feel. You don't exactly know the person by reading their walls! Meet the person up, have a HTHT (heart-to-heart-talk). But people just don't get it. They feel this is a good way.

Impact: Less socializing among friends. More friends, more superficial friends.

Goodness: Games! Everyone likes playing games. Mousehunt is one of my favourite in Facebook. Its a passive game where you sound a horn every 15min to try to catch a mouse.

My Feelings: Good game. Really. But where is the socializing again? The games on Facebook does allow you to 'play with a friend', like for mousehunt you sound a horn for a friend at the same location. But where is the dynamic of coordination? And its way tooo distracting.

Impact: Games are solo games. No interaction. Distraction, from work.

Goodness: People You May Know. Add as friend. Its on the right side of the home page. Lets you quickly find long lost friend and reconnect.

My Feelings: I've used this function quite alot... When I use it I never post anything on the person's wall. Its like.. reconnect on facebook but not really connected anymore.

Impact: Quick reconnection, buff your friend list. Thats it.

All and all, Facebook is awesome. Mark did a fantastic job. Its concept was for everything good. Its just people start abusing Facebook, choosing to substitute reality with it. 5th of December, lets all ask those friends that matters out amd hang out physically. Its a date.

RandOM:Crush

I know it won't last. I just know it.

Sometimes I don't understand why I try so hard.

I've got a few more weeks to spend with my friends. Don't worry, no one is dying. My course is coming to an end and we're going to spread out to various places. People keep consoling me that theres a chance I'll be together with my friends. Well the truth is theres also a chance I won't, and I think thats a better chance.

I've got this friend who in my course. Im not real close to him but I could say he is my best friend. Im not sure if it is the other way though. Its a pity that the time we've spent together is so short. I would have really wanted to know him better. People tell me that I could still remain in contact with my friends even if we're in different places. Well, thats if its 2 way right?

I know it. I just know it, that after we go our seperate ways, we go our seperate ways. 13weeks is insufficient to create a bond strong enough to last. I've had many experiences with friends that I really wanted to befriend and at some point we became real close but after we moved on, we really moved on. Some because I didn't try, while others is because I stopped trying. Either way it doesn't matter. It didn't last.

And right now, I've got 3 more weeks. I've been trying very hard to make the best of it. To try and improve on this friendship so that it can become 2 way. So that it can self-sustain. So that maybe I can become his best friend too. But I just have a feeling that it'll boil down to nothing. Maybe it won't boil down to nothing because it was nothing to begin with.

I don't understand why I try so hard even though I know it wouldn't make a difference. I know that it'll just make it harder when the times comes. I can just stop trying and stop it here. Shorten the pain but I guess its that glimmer of hope that maybe I can do it, or maybe we'll be going to the same place. Or perhaps its just human nature to do futile things, just like despite knowing we all meet our makers at the end of the road all of us try to achieve tangible rewards that we could not bring away.

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I woke up, in the middle of a Thursday night

Check my calendar, can't believe my eyes its 5th of December.

I can't remember, how the past 3 months has gone past, has gone fast

And now I wonder, would we still be friends together, forever (and ever...)

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RanDom: Worth

The Social Network

This is a story about the founders of the social-networking website, facebook. Although the story may not be completely true, it still paints a very detailed picture of the creation of a worldwide phenomenon. Facebook is now part and parcel of almost everyone's life and I believe it is important for all to have this - The making of Facebook - as part of their general knowledge.

This movie is simply too brilliant! The ideas presented in the movie are so bold but true. It may be hard for some to comprehend or come to terms with but it is simply such boldness that great enterprises are created.

I feel this new surge of motivation, of fire burning within me to pursue something that is far beyond my understanding; to earn money I never thought possible; to own properties I never thought I could; to make changes that shape the world. This movie has given me a new dosage of fuel to burn longer and brighter. I'm not sure if this is the way for me, but I'll walk this way.

RanDom: No more blogging about my daily occurrence. Too boring ):

Too fast for me.

Strange. A while ago time seem to crawl. I can't wait to pass out from the camp im in now and get on with my new life. Now, time seems to fly - too fast. I really wish time would slow down a little so I can have more time with my new found friends ):

So recently I watch "Child's Eye" and "Paranomal Activity 2". Both movies are horror and like most horrors, the plot is.. *sigh* I wouldn't say I exactly wasted the money since the fright scenes got to me but I'd think twice, or thrice when deciding to watch another horror in the theaters. Paying to be in fright is just too stupid for me.

Today I had this awesome buffet at Vienna (Novena). Well its a little more price-y (40/pax after ++) but the spread is quite fantastic! They serve crayfish, lobsters, salmon, prawns, beef etc etc etc. A very sinful lunch indeed.

5 more weeks. ):

RanDom: Rocket!!!

I scrub algae!

Have you seen those cleaners with those huge jet spray cleaning the pavements? If you've seen them at work you'd see the pavement in 2 distinct shades; the lighter being the cleaned portion and the darker being the uncleaned. I've always thought the darker shade of the floor is due to the accumulation of dirt from everyone stepping all over it but I just found out that I was wrong. Those are algae!

How did i know? Ah! Last Friday lessons ended early so they made us scrub algae around our camp. Initially it was quite fun, creating algae graffiti all over the floor. Soon, we came to a realization that the algae infestion is so widespread and our backs started to ache.. Eventually they made us remove our marks ):

The coming few weeks in camp I'd be having high key.. Hope all goes well.

RanDom: bicycle

Again!

So it seems that I only blog on my book in day. Just to make my existence out of camp last a tad bit longer.

The coming Friday I may not be back ): I FAILED an evaluation in camp so I'm in for re-evaluation. I was SO close to passing! (o.6points) *sigh*

For the coming week, I'll be having my driving evaluation too. No, its not a car but a super heavy vehicle (13+ Tonnes). Whats difficult about this driving is that you steer the rear wheels instead of the front, so I get psycho-motor quite often.. If I do not pass, there goes another weekend ):

I've just got a new game! Civilization V. Until now, the game is quite good EXCEPT its so darn complicated. The there are shortcuts everywhere, tool tips all over. Every unit does different things and there are so many things that will happen in the next 10 turns. You need to know all of it and more. I guess it'll be a fantastic game if I can overcome this technical barrier.

One last thing. I got a new toy (: Finally bought a portable keyboard from Yamaha for over $300. I've been contemplating on whether I should invest in it for over 6 months now and I finally decided "Ah heck! Just get it". Now I can self-learn piano / keyboard (:

RaNDom: strawberry twilight.

Book in day... AGAIN ):

LOOK AT THE DATE! Today is 10.10.10! It happens only once every hundred year. Just like every other date actually.. Something much more significant about 10.10.10 is that it is a SUNDA Y ): I've got to book in soon. *sigh*

My life have never been more un-interesting.. I guess im in a low point of my life - a very very low point. My life is uneventful so here are the little updates i can squeeze out.

1. I collected my desktop from repair and sent it back a week ago -.-. I dont know what is wrong yet.
2. I bought a new clothe. 10bucks.
3. I sprained by waist. Actually its an old injury from my track & field days.

That is it i guess. 8 more weeks to go~

RaNDom: ):):):):):):):

Why must we serve?

Long time since I last updated. Here it is:

2 weeks has past in Arti. I take back everything I said about Arti or ASLC! Honestly, those were uninformed speculations. Now that I've been through 2 weeks of Arti, I must say both.. SUCKS!

Argh, Arti life is just a bit, so little more than stationary. Its just like school again, learning everything about some gun except the 'teachers' are insane and theres constant PT and FEAR throughout lessons. Sigh.. Theres 10 more weeks of this crap and it seems so freakin far away.

So what im up to recently? I've just got back to playing Maplestory. Sucks i know but there isn't really anything much more to do with the little free time I have. Im also playing Mouse Hunt from FB (:

ALright. Thats all ):

RaNDom: Nothing stops time!

So late!

OppS! Such a late update. I admit! I was lazy ): But at least im honest *Glowing eyes*

Okay, so Im OUT of PLC. I've completed my Foundation term in SCS and now im posted to Arti! (Phew~). Arti is one of the vocation with the easier training. When I say easier i dont mean its easy at all but compared to the rest (like ASLC INF) its one of the better ones. Its like.. maybe i run 5km and they run 10km on a daily basis? Nah, im talking nonsense (;

Today is the last day of my blockleave (already..). As usual, it was not productive. I want to do soo many things but the amount of time I have is just not enough for me to commit. In the end I scrape the idea altogether. ):

Well, looking on the BRIGHT side, at least this week is a short week. Book-in Wed, Book-out Thurs. Hopefully Im not involved in AHM this coming Sunday.

RAnDom: Isn't it ironic? Short = 5 letters, Long = 4 letters. Short is longer than Long

lose, loss, lost.

Im at a lost. I've just heard about a disturbing fact that i cannot comprehend. It is not within my ability to understand.. especially the magnitude.

Just last week, the OCTs just completed their field camp. Unfortunately for a few of the, they misfired and are getting punished. What is the punishment? 14days RCP and 7 Extras. In lay terms, it means for the next 2 weeks they can't book out and for the following 7 weeks they'll only get to book out less than 24hours each week.. Thats sad ): But thats not all...

I have a particular friend, not only did he misfire but he also lost (and eventually found) an equipment which resulted in a 7 Extras punishment, which is on top of the 3 Extras he already owe. So technically for the next 2 weeks he'll have to stay incamp and for the next 17 weeks he books out for less than 24hours each week.. 5 months worth of punishment! )):

Now im tossing and turning in my bed, not being able to comprehend just how serious this is. 5 months of punishments is like... a quarter of NS? I can't think of anything to console this poor friend's soul. Somebody help me! Somebody help him!!

Well, im tossing and turning not entirely because of my friend's plight. Tomorrow im completing my Foundation term in SCS. I'll get to know my posting.. Whether i stay or get posted out. This posting result would determine how the rest of my army life would be - slack or xiong. Lets hope for the best ))):

RaNDoM: Christmas List.

Whats next?

Im home using my laptop.

Home, because I just completed some live firing and 28km overnight route march (or so they claim. I think its 34km). Today i had my visit to some club that is specially for us specialist (to-be). Since our performance was good, OC decides that we get to book in tomorrow 0700hrs! HURAY! (:

Laptop, because my desktop burnt. Diagnostic says that the power supply is spoilt and theres burnt marks on my graphic card and motherboard. ONLY my motherboard is still under warrenty so... I'd have to wait 4-5 weeks for my motherboard servicing AND spend $300-$400 on a new graphic card and power supply. Sigh..

Remember i re-contracted my handphone line? Yea. So using that i bought an iphone 4 and resold it off at a profit of about $400. Half of that goes to my bro cause he sealed the deal. Hopefully its enough to cover for my computer expenses.

This friday im getting my POSTING! *fingers crossed* Air Defence!

RandoM: Sleep Sleep Sleep

Wrong Turn?

Less than 10 hours from now, i'll be having my SOC test. This test held great significance and had cost me many hours of sleep. Right now though, im feeling calm and unmotivated. This test has lost its purpose.

Earlier in the day, I was presented with the opportunity to cross the legendary bridge. It was something that I've been aiming for since the first day i stepped into Pasir Lebar camp and over the weeks i have worked hard towards it. When finally this right was bestowed to me, I, for some reason that i've yet to comprehend, REJECTED IT.

Yup, thats right. I rejected the cross over.

Im confused now. I don't know how im feeling. Seems im disappointed by my own choice. Disappointed that i gave up on this golden opportunity to prove myself worthy. Wasted all my efforts and hard work. Upset that I feel the me myself is incompetent in handling OCS training. Sigh..

RanDOM: wrong turn?

No fair!

NIGHTS OUT FOR IPPT PEEPS ONLY. WHY?!? ):

Sigh.. So my coy just gave a nights out to those who re-took their ippt in the morning. Its not fair! We had to do our 3km run in the morning and THEY DIDNT HAVE TO. That pretty much balances the effort both parties put in.. So why them only?

Friday is SOC. I did my own training while the rest were doing their ippt or their SIB (Slack In Bunk) + tactical sleeping + one-third alert Observation post for Enciks. (Yes, i actually did MORE than the ippt peeps. Wheres my nights out?) The result of my training? I need an average of 2min to clear 400m. Sigh.. That means i really really really have to clear the obstacles super quickly.. Like a NINJA! (: Lets hope *Cross fingers*

Random: It rained!

Updatessss!!

Hey internet! How have you been? Let me tell you about me..

- My computer fried. (yes, again. Spark and smoke.. Cool shit!)
- One more week to pass out from BSLC
- Need to get 9.30 for SOC to attempt crossover. Im at 16min now ):
- Foot rot. Yup, i have that o.O
- Changed my phone plan. Now i pay 50bucks less per month =D
- Im intending to buy iphone 4! (and sell it for profit ^^ )
- Was LSM for the whole of field camp week! Suay..
- Rain during my shell scrape night. Suay x2..
- I have nights out this week! Not sure which day though (Andrew you know what this means!)
- I spent $60+ on new clothes and a berm. I really like them (:
- I found out Andrew stopped blogging D= (there goes my internet entertainment)
- This Friday is my FINAL SOC.. nine thirty ARGH!
- I miss my cards. I just need to dribble them.. (damN! Can't bring them to camp..)
- Im worried.. Everyone is having prelims.
- I watched The Last Air Bender with Timo!
- I watched Liar Game with Clarence.
- I remember Bryan Hoe's IC number and his shoe size!
- Pay day is sooN! (okay, maybe not so soon but still.. PAY DAY!)

Well, thats what happened to me.. Not in order though. Hehe.. See you soon!

RaNDom: Wouldn't it be awesome if it rains....?

Laugh, just laugh.

So they say laughter is the best medicine. Recently I read from the papers (yes i read) and i found out that people who laugh more lives longer.

Laughing prevents you from getting into sticky situation. You can poke fun of someone with a smile on your face and a 'haha' between your sentence and you'd get away with it - even if those are feelings from the very core of you.

Laughing helps you get out of sticky situation. When you are completely embrassed for something stupid you did and it seems like the whole world has its attention on your stupidity, you could try and find a hole and hide your head or you could just simply laugh it off.

Laughing is a very important social skill. You need to laugh to mix. You can bring 2 people together but if they do not laugh together, chances are they won't last. Its the same for BGR, BFF, Best-whatever-you-like.

So laugh. Laugh at friends, laugh at girls, laugh at guys or at movies. Laugh at things or events or anything and everything. Laugh.. That is if you know how. I've forgotton how to laugh.

RaNdOM: (:

Dying...

Have you notice this trend?

Yup, I really wonder how long more i can sustain.. *fingers crossed*

It is National Day eve now, at this moment. I guess by the time Im done with this post the clock would've striked 12 and Singapore would've turned 45. 45 years, not a long time but not short either. Just half a year in NS and I've experience so many things, so much more than my whole life combined. 45 years and Singapore changed from brown to multi colored; from singlet to CK shirt; from street stall to Raffles Hotel.

I've started to collect movie tickets, the part that you get to keep. I've always wanted to collect it but I can't seem to store it without losing it. Today I finally got blutack (or white) and stuck the few tickets i have onto my cupboard. I hope to fill my whole door with it! WhooOoOo~

If i survive this coming week, i'll post again.

RandOM: 3D2N Field camp!~